Hey everybody… I’m still here, just making adjustments. I’ve just been so upset with myself… All of the goals I set before the summer…. Not a single one completed. I just wanted to take the time out to tell you that if there is something that you want to change in your or around you… make the change. You are seriously the only person that can stop you. Be what you want… Do what you want. Don’t just sit there, or stand over here, or breath on top of that. Do something…. if you want

Sorry I’ve been gone…. just haven’t been myself. Then again…. This has been me for some time… So… So, maybe this is me.

hamburgerboogie:

Just because I want to fuck you until we both can’t move does not diminish the fact I want to hold your hand and watch movies and build pillow forts with you and go to the store and buy tampons for you when you’re on your lady week.

(Source: princeburrito, via beautifulhatred)

I’m beginning to see how hard pulling yourself away from people is. I know I say it all the time, but I really miss having someone…  

bad day….

Tired!

howdy everyone. I didn’t forget about you guys.

Currently watching That Awkward Moment….

"What if I told you 10 years from now your life would be exactly the same?
Doubt you’d be happy.
So, why are you afraid of change?"

- ― Karen Salmansohn (via psych-quotes)

(via duckyblanket)

Eat em uppppp Kats! Lol, man…. I am really going to miss Sam Houston
today was intriguing…. …I lie. Same ol stuff. What about you guys?

Anonymous asked: I'm asking people I follow a question. You seem very inspirational so here we go. I just recently went through a heartbreak and I wanna know from someone else. If there was any relationship that you would fight to get back which one?

I don’t even know if whoever asked me this question still follows me or even still cares about my answer, but here it goes. There is not one relationship that I have ever had that I have not been deeply connected to. There is a sense of love I have for someone before I date them. And I’m not one of those guys who says it back, I’m usually always the “I love you” person in the relationship. I take that kind of stuff seriously. So to focus more one what you asked. Yes. If, I’ve ever told you I love you, then a part of you will always be with me. But there are three main relationships I would go back and fix if I could.

Sabraun was like my best friend. And under many conditions, I consider her my first girlfriend. We grew up together kinda. From eighth grade to of and on throughout high school up until junior year. That relationship really laid down the foundation for how I am with women now. It was a learning experience. …Or on the job training. There were so many mistakes… Too many. But it helped me grow. She helped me grow. If I met her tomorrow for the first time, we’d be great.In some shape or form we’ve always been connected. Some type of a friend ship has always stood between us and I’m always grateful for that. 

Raven…. …imagine bliss. Complete happiness. Raven was so wonderful. Lol, I remember I didn’t even think she was real at first. Not like, “I think im dreaming this cant be real” type of real, but a “she doesn’t exist this is a stolen picture and some guy with no t-shirt and huge man breasts” type of real. ….So she oovoo’d me…. She was exactly as beautiful as the picture…. More even. I fell in love as soon as I new she was a possibility. And she seemed to walk into my life at a time when things could not get more great. A blessing. But, I still had a nice bit of growing to do. She was my fairy tail. My once in a lifetime… And I loved every minute of it. She was murder to all of my senses. She brought them to and took them over the ceiling.

Ms.McElveen… My ex… I will speak of her when people ask me of my first marriage. I feel like we were that together with how we felt. This is who I learned my sensuality from. How to touch a woman, how to make her feel as though she is the only woman in the world using only my hands. We shaped  some of the best and worst parts of each other. She was the real world. We understood everything in a deeper sense than most people on earth. A lot that we did (including be with each other) didn’t make sense to most people but we were able to see things differently. It’s like we had a third eye that would only open for each other. I wouldn’t change anything…

There will always be a spot in my heart for all three of those women. I love each of them like it is no one’s business. Try your hardest if you want someone. Be with all of them and let them be with all of you. Be vulnerable. And yes, there is a chance that it won’t work, that everything you have done and will try is a waste of time. ..But think about how beautiful it can be if it works. Keep that vision of paradise. Because there is one for all of us. And you can’t unlock a door using half a key. Break-ups happen. All you can do is learn… Take the fall, brush the dirt off, and keep moving forward. I hope you’re okay. And I hope you’re doing better everyday

I don’t realize I’m lonely until after 9pm. I think of my past and everyone that has been in it and try to pick out someone I think will talk to me. And I hate it. I miss being able to talk to someone at a moment’s notice. Or having someone to call me at three in the morning because they’re scared, or bored, or even just because they miss me. I miss being connected. And I say it so much. But honestly, it doesn’t mean anything when I say it. No one would date me how I am currently. …I have a lot to fix. …That’s not me shaming myself, I love myself and do not condone self hate, but it’s me acknowledging that I have some work to do. Crazy thing is, i used to always get crazy out of shape and be super poorly groomed after a break-up. I would wait to find someone who liked that guy and I would make myself better for them. I’ve never really been able to push it forward for myself…. But, i’m trying man. I’m trying seriously hard.

I’m really liking New Girl…