I miss being with someone. I miss the warmth I get physically, mentally, and emotionally. I miss the feeling of connection. I’m not saying I want a girlfriend. I probably couldn’t be with one. I’m not saying I want sex. I’ve been doing pretty good without it for the last six weeks. I just want something there…
I reminisce about my life a lot. I used to have a great life. School wise I had great grades and I guess if you actually care about that type of stuff, I was pretty popular. I used to be a clothing designer, an actual clothing designer. I went places and did things. And I was in love. I was happy. Now I just feel like I’m floating by with life. Happiness lasts for seconds and then I am back were I started. Funny thing is, I’m not depressed. I’ve been depressed before and this isn’t it. It’s like… I just am not motivated. I have so much to do and I just can’t do it. And not just because I can’t, but because I don’t care. I don’t care about too much now a days. And I feel like if I don’t fix this, I will eventually give up on everything.
Au Meme: J. Cole talking about a special girl that used to be apart of his life, who is he talking about? You be the judge of that.
Jermaine: “I loved her and I still love her, she was God’s gift to be and I never took advantage of it, it’s crazy how you can be so dumb in love, think that nothing can take that away from you how it can never slip through your fingers, then one day bam it’s like you’ve never had it, that’s how I felt when I lost her, but like I said I’m not the one to hold a grudge, I see now that she’s more happier than ever…sadly she looks more happier then how I made her.”
The best feeling in the world is when you pull them panties to the side, right before you about to slide in.